I shall stop thinking of so many things, and get serious for studies! It's like 30 plus days away from exams only, and 23 days away from SYF, 15 days from Napfa, & 1 week from Napfa 2.4.
I'm counting down to so many things, but I'm also counting up to one thing. 36 days, and I'm still waiting.
-- Daddy fell sick yesterday, so today I went to school myself. Woke up around 5.30, leave house at 6.15am. Reached school around 6.45am, I'm so early. Reached there, did some homework and went off to hall.
English Lessons, Mdm Sathiya was super angry! She scolded those who didn't go for remedial. CME lessons, Mdm Nuirida showed us Inspirational PowerPoint. It's indeed Inspirational, meaningful sentences. Managed to copy down one, but it's on my worksheet. PE, I ran 2.4km with Laopo! and I made it in 19.0...min. hahhaa, not bad actually :) was dead beat!! and then recess.
Okays skip. CHEMISTRY LESSONS, I'm starting to dislike chemistry lessons. but not chemistry, I'm so going to do self revision. So what If I'm vain-.-
Got back my maths test results, I scored the lousiest, within Laopo & Eugene, 21/30. Laopo scored 22/30 and Eugene scored 23/30 well well, i'm just not putting in enough effort sigh.
After school went for cca, didn't sing today! Was feeling unwell, having flu! argh, it's getting back to me again, I don't like. D:
I've got nothing to post already, I just hope that my life can be more happy, and not so dead. I WANT HAPPINESS TO COME BACK TO ME. Find back that cheerful me, please.
I'm craving for a Adidas pink watch now, I'm begging dad to get it for me ):
-- Just came by this video at youtube, listen to how this girl sing! I feel that she's super talented, can be my idol already D:
Things is not going smoothly again, where are you?
Moodswings Taken for granted Failure
I don't know what to do I just need a listening ear someone whom can keep my secrets lock it up and not let anyone know not let anything leak out from anyone's mouth can anyone just be like this
I really don't see any future for me All I wanted is to do everything to the best I am trying, but it ended up not what I expected
I felt like such a failure. I'm so imperfect, so so far away from perfection.
So many things piling up, responsibility is the keyword for every task I get I don't do 1 thing, it's equals to no responsibility I really can't hold on to it anymore, feeling like giving up on everything
I need to go somewhere far, for a long break
But I know, I can't.
All I ever wished was you to concern about me, ask me how I'm living, and be my listening ear but I guess that's all just miracles if it really happens to me, there's no hope in life
No more. I wish you were here at this time, but you're not.
Lots of things happened recently & that's why I felt like posting again suddenly, but with a very bad mood. Last Thursday, 9 of 3N girls sat down and talked. We tried to clear all misunderstandings, but it doesn't seem helpful. Everyone tried to talk out, but in the end it seems like we're quarreling, I did nothing, but kept quiet. History's gonna repeat again? I'm very tired of all quarrels, jealousy and stuffs like this. I'm tired of it.
Seriously, it's going through my mind again and again. Who's my true friends? Who's the people around me with 2 faces? To others it might be stupid of me to think of all these, but I really trusted every single person that I know as a FRIEND. I trust friends cos I cherish them, I don't wanna lose any one of them. If one day, I really had to choose side, I really will break down and might as well give up on everyone.
It's been a hard time for me, I really wish this could end faster, as soon as possible. It's been bothering me, I don't want this to continue, can I get peace? I just need 2 person by my side now, the 2 true friends I have; Theo Laopo & Eugene Mui.
This 2 true friends have been beside me for 4 months, there's quarrels, but we would always still clear misunderstandings 1 by 1. No matter what happened, whether if I'm sad, happy, angry or moody, they would always stand by my side, no matter if it rains or shines. We've been through ups and downs, we've been through times when we're not strong. But to me, they're still the peoople I trusted most. I told Eugene yesterday, I felt bad leaving him alone this few days, I felt guilty. He's always there to cheer me up, make me happy, but why did i just left him out so easily? I felt really guilty. --
You said you'll be here, but now, you left me alone.
I've decided to throw away all my troubles, and get back to work.
I don't feel like blogging anymore. I will be going MIA from now on; -- till when I feel like blogging.
I'm super moody today.
Your Face -Taylor Swift
I heard a song tonight on the radio , another girl sings about a boy . just sees his face in every space , every room and i know , if i turn around you wont be there if i close my eyes will you be there ?
i dont wanna lose your face . i dont wanna wake up one day and not remember what time erased . i dont wanna turn around cause im not scared of what love gave me and took away and i dont wanna lose your face .
i got a picture of you in my bedroom and im hoping it never falls. hope i'll never lose that feeling i used to get when you called . now i wonder to myself , who were you where are you will you ever hear it all ?
i dont wanna lose your face . i dont wanna wake up one day and not remember what time erased . i dont wanna turn around cause im not scared of what love gave me and took away and i dont wanna lose your face .
that girl in the song had it so good . wish i could close my eyes and see you i wish the sky had your face , and the oceans had your eyes and the sun had your lips and i had you . ohhh ohhhh yeahhh .
I don't wanna lose your face . i dont wanna wake up one day and not remember what time erased . i dont wanna turn around cause im not sacred of what love gave me and took away and i dont wanna lose your face . ohhh no no noooo
i dont wanna lose your face . i dont wanna turn around ohh ohhh yeahhhh .
Today is not my day, I feel superrrr useless today. It's just not my day, sigh.
Reached school on time. Okays JUMP TO SUBJECT. I don't like school.
They kept saying about BGR BGR BGR. wtf lah, it's already the past, please get updated! we're no longer together and i'm single okay. It's my prob to fall for him, why you all bother so much? It more or less would affect studies, but then I tried to manage both equally. Am I wrong to like him? AM I? Sorry but I'm moody for the whole day today because of this! I don't like this feeling. ):
Choir isn't very good for me today, moody. I almost broke down, but I controlled myself. Blame on me, I don't have good sound quality, my voice is not stable. I can't sing for Lafa , which is my favourite song. I can't engage that much anymore, I don't like this feeling. I feel super.. don't know how to say. But disappointed in myself. I've done so much, in the end I still can't get what I want. I guess it's time for me to expect more from myself.
Firstly, I would want to say this to the school, I NEED PRIVACY. I know teachers have been reading my blog due to some issues previously, but it already ended, why can't i have my own privacy back? I don't like people to watch over every action that I take My family members don't even read my blog, why do you? I mean like, I don't find there's a NEED to read students' blog. I have my own secret, It's my OWN PRIVACY. If not why do I even bother to open up a blog? Might as well keep everything to myself. *No offense, just want to speak out my mind I just can't take it anymore.
Forget it, there's a lot of things bothering me, made me feel very useless. I saw him today, but I felt quite okay, I'm strong okay! so ya, today is a slacky day, super slack. We didn't really do alot of things, i only wrote things for some lessons. Other lessons was BORING.
Chinese test was very very good, very satisfied w my results! I got 44.5 upon 50! Wahaha. Finally effort I put in isn't down the drain. I worked super hard for this test! Hope that I can maintain this result :)
Okay let's see. After school, stayed back with Laopo till around 3+. Then 3+ I took bus till Bukit Gombak and met up w mom @ Chinese Garden Went to grandma house again :)
WAS STUDYING, YAY. -- Recently there's this new HORROR movie (I'm lovin' it :p) Release Date | Thursday, 26th March I'M GONNA WATCH IT, WATCH IT! COMING SOON TOO, I MUST WATCH ALL. MUST MUST MUST. ERICCCCCC!!~~
OKAY, I'm not in a good mood to post now. Sorry, & Bye. Do you still care? It's the 24th of March tomorrow, do you notice the date? I bet you don't.
You know what?! I'm not supposed to be posting now. I switched on the comp due to some childish acts of SPAMMERS. Suckers, can you simply grow up!? Stop spamming blogs and grow up.
Okay nothing much, tmr's school reopen. I'm not prepared, currently rushing my homework! HAHA, Pray hard I'm able to finish it by tmr. LALALA.
My phone's not ringing I felt so empty the endless nights, made me feel so lonely all I wanted was you to talk to me about anything
but there's nothing that could go back to you and me everything changed, it's no longer the same no more you and me, all it's left is me can you just talk to me? or let me know you're waiting waiting for the miracle to happen, just like what I'm doing boy, I'm waiting for the miracle, I am waiting.
Seriously, I hate heels already, it's making my leg ache like nobody's business.
Today went shopping spree with Pris Darl and it's quite stupid of me to not wear flats. I mean like, who wear heels for shopping sprees?! ---
Okay, let's talk about today. I set my alarm to wake me up at 8.45am, but ended up waking up at 9.30am, so I rushed as mom's going out at 10am! Rushed in time and went to mom's working place to meet up w Darl. Slacked at mom's working place till around 11 and on our way to Vivo!
Camwhored in the empty toilet after our lunch ;D
After vivo went to Grandma's house! Grandparents were very happy to see me and my cousin :) Will be dropping by grandma's house more often w Darl bah. heh.
Around 6, me and Darl cab back to mom's working place. and SUPER UNLUCKY, DAD'S NOT FETCHING ME AND MOM HOME! My leg's aching and I can't really walk you know!! Wanted to take train, but train service got prob! So wave for cab again, and home @ 8! SADLY, Holidays ended. & I guess I will still be in holiday mood when school reopens :x Left w tomorrow to rush my homework. Sigh.
ANYONE WANNA STUDY W ME? I need study group badly ~ 2403
I'm just back from tuition, & my dad started shouting at me. Wth luhs, I only never do some things then he started to shout at me. I feel super unfair okay, then I argued back, then he shout at me again D: wth lah! I'm not for him to vent his anger.
No pictures for today! I didn't go for movie trip! postponed, due to not enough time rush down to Plaza Sing. Guess I'm gonna go Plaza Sing w my cousin tmr :p SHOPPING SPREE! Okay, I'm so looking forward to tmr :)
Had choir yesterday and today, was super tiring, but worth it. Cos everyone was super hardworking, trying to make it the best. I think we're getting nearer and nearer to our target! Hope we won't slack-en down for this 1 month! :3
Today Mr. Hondorp (professional vocal teacher) came to listen to us! He is super cute, when we sang wrongly he will go ''whoops!'', Haha! and he have got blue blue eyes x) I love angmoh's eyes loh. & while singing, Mr. Wilson will like hint us where to get louder or softer, then when Mr. Hondorp look back, he will act as if nothing happened, Lol, I love today :)
Jiayou Jiayou! 34 days to SYF. --- Change of blog song; Call Me When You're Sober by Evanescense
There's still times when I think of you, and I felt like crying. But the tears, don't seem to listen to me Someday I'll break down, and cry all I want.
I'm super angry with blogger now ): I wanted to upload some overdue photos on the Learning Fest & today, but it just screwed up! It's not even loading when it shows "Loading..." Noob.
Okay forget it, shall upload another time. I will be watching COMING SOON, tomorrow! Yayness. I can't wait to watch it, I know it'll be super scary, but idc! HAHAHA. ERIC'S GONNA WATCH IT WITH MEEEE. Can't wait to watch it x)
Recently, I'm in love w a song that is sang by 潘玮柏.
Some pictures that I took with JieLin Love yesterday! The red octopus is the birthday gift that I gave to Jeannette. I'm seriously tired now, and I'm not feeling well ! Going for meeting on the Thor Cookies things later, sigh.
I wanna recover before this holiday! I feel so uneasy! I feel like dying! I wanna get my sleep, so i won't feel so uneasy! I don't wanna do anything, I just wanna sleep.
Sigh ):
Bye People. I had so many dreams about you and me.
I've finally met up with Xinyan Lover! Hahaha, it's rather stupid to get close w a person, and yet you never meet her before. Soo yup! That's my Lover :p
Okay let's see, I'm not late today, almost late. but everyone was late, Lol. So I'm not late.
Met up with lover already, then we went to get tickets first. Bought tickets already then we went to Arcade, Lover wanted to play ddr, but got a few kids(?) took up the DDR and didn't want to let us play awhile, zz. Okay so we went to meet with Pris Darl instead and went up for popcorn not long later! Went in cinema and watched Dragonball evolution! It's rather interesting! I rate it 5stars lah, can try watching :) The male lead is super goodlooking too x)
After movie, we went down to Lot1 again! Then we had mac and went shoppin for awhile, didn't buy anything, and we went to take Mrt and went seperate ways; Lover to Bugis, me & cousin to my mom's working place. Cousin is super dead today; cheerup!
Slacked at the staircase near mom's working place as my cousin still doesnt want to go to work! So we camwhored there, yawww. - - - - - - BEWARE OF MONSTERS! - - -
& then slacked at mom's working place till 7.30pm and dad fetched us home :) I love today even though it seems really simple or maybe boring, but finally! I met up with Lover (!)
Let's see.. The next movie that I wanna watch is.. COMING SOON, NC16. I'm so going to watch it, w. someone over 16 years old. Lol, I've seen the trailer, scared the shitzxs out of me -.-
& Lastly! Happy Birthday to Beloved Jeannette! Hey girl, sorry for not celebrating with you for your 15th birthday, we're no longer as close as before, express life is more tiring, unlike Normal Acad. But I hope our friendship will still last, and I won't forget how close we were for the last few months. I hope that you've got new clique and I guess they would be better friends then me, so yup, study hard and last long with them. You're still Loved, rmb this.
Bye! You said you'll be there for me, You said you will. Forget it, everything's already the past, why am I still thinking of it? why am I still holding on?
Firstly! Happy 1year and 1 month, Qingren! ♥ just a short message for my beloved qingren; even though we're always going through ups and downs, drifting apart and getting back again & again, please know that i really cherishes you a lot. Our friendship shall go on and never let it end, promise? :) /
I'm going on a movie trip with xinyan lover tomorrow! Passing her her cookies too :p I'm bored.
I'm slacking at home for the whole day, supposed to do homework, but in the end I'm baking cookies again, Lol.
Okay shall update photo tomorrow! I can't wait for my movie trip, yayness.
You haven't leave my dream, and that's why I'm still having that smile.
Hello people, now i'm using dad's laptop, lazy to switch on my comp :x Okay let's see, I've just reached home not long ago, and had chicken rice for dinner! Lol.
Went to bugis street with Priscilla darl just now, walked around there. Lol. We had our lunch at Mos Burger, then we went looking for a bag that both of us wanted to buy. We walked for about 2hours and finally we found the stall wth. Then she bought the black transclucent bag while i bought a white one, i like it very much :)
Home sweet home after that, saw a indian guy keep lookin' at me and my cousin, cousin felt so irritated and keep staring at him, Lol. Then we said very insulting things, not very actually. But yup, he shouldn't like keep looking at us right? Super irritating. Then when we reached Jurong East, my cousin purposely sit beside the indian guy, Lol. Trained to Pioneer.
Reached mom's working place, then wait for dad to fetch us home.
Saw this baby in the train when we're on our way to Bugis. This baby is super noisy but when he look at me and my cousin, he'll quieten down. Lol, he's super cute lah k.
Overdued Pictures! ----
The Thor Cookies have started our preorder! we will be selling Chocolate Cookies, chocolates cookies & more! There will be around 5-6 cookies per pack ranging from $2 to $3! You may start ordering(!) and as for special request, you must let me know before march holidays end.
and of course, the prices would be different! Special request will be ranging from $3 - $5.
Add me up to tell me your orders! Tears.ofmemories@hotmail.com